Dear Jon

I am stumped. There really is a lot on my list to be held against you, but this is one thing that it looks like you are going in a different direction with. I think it is beyond stupid that we are still having a conversation about Guantanamo. I was not the one who made it a big deal to begin with. There is some difference with you to change your mind about it, but for me to actually get over it is easier said than done. Maybe it was just a violent manipulation you wanted to use to control me, or it was an instance where you couldn't control whatever reason of your anger and to join in on other's sexual abuse. I really don't know why you did that. It was an extreme measure to demonize me like that and try to make me feel like a freak or pervert or be mentally institutionalized. This isn't the only example where you want me to feel like a freak, but this is one major primary example that was made into a mountain from a large number of people.
I don't know your motive. There is some kind of significance in you backing down and quitting the abuse on your end, but it was still a serious, very serious offense.
You have unfairly criticized me of a number of things.
You've been a manpig for a long time.
You have subjected me to your other women over time and you're not the only man who is guilty.
I still don't know how truthful "death at a funeral" is and if you really had something with my dad going on? sick.
Jon, I know it is your free will to love whoever you want. It was just so extreme and disrespecting to hate on me the way you did. I'm not necessarily insinuating that you are coming on to me by making one act of peace. You had a funny Kurt Cobain joke earlier, but I couldn't help but be happy over the whole baby thing. I know you're not the real dad, but there was some humor in the night that was on his end.

So, my wall is still up. Changing one major offense where the past can't be changed just isn't enough for me. Even if you did have more wooing tactics, I just wouldn't want to have to experience so much extremism and controllingness. In addition, I'm not over it.